animal

it's really hard to explain but i'll try. So you know how there are some things that are innately out of your control? Well, that's mostly because some things are, and some things are not. The things that are not aren't necessarily in place of entitlement for things that are never to be, they just are nothing-but being nothing, they aren't anything. So nothing can't be anything. Which means there's no place for it to hold a space in this universe. Nothings are usually something. Unless, it's nothing. But then I think, it has to be something, if it's worth thinking about, right? I've been thinking about it for a while now. like i said, it's really hard to explain. and i'm trying. acid. blues. certainty. dominoes. empire. falcon. gamble. harsh. ibex. jambalaya. kickstand. liquor. motivate. nectar. oblique. personal. quill. radioshack. standard. tangerine. umbrella. violet. warm. x-ray. yelp. zombies. all those mean something. because we didn't leave them to be nothing. but all the things that we don't do, what becomes of them? turn right when we turned left, what happens to the right? talked with my friends instead of a girl, what happens to her? ate a carnitas burrito instead of chicken? chose red instead of blue. what happens to all the nothings in life? they are all something, but nothing to me. i'll only ever get to look at or talk to her from across the room.
because that is how far she puts herself from me.
so, i wonder and think about moving on.
seems reasonable, after all this time.
seems like a good idea.
her green eyes say otherwise.
maybe i'll forget.