pseudo-pstudent

So, there's a lot going on. God is making my life regimented and that is precisely what I prayed for. However, I feel like the last few weeks I've been making excuses in my mind to "not be so regimented". Today, though, I realized the various weights of commitments that lay before me.

Even though I'm not enrolled this semester, I'm learning something like 40 credit hours.
Here's what I mean:

Bible study has taken on some new weight, in light of this last weekend. I'm going through an expositional study of Romans, still, which includes commentaries by James Montgomery Boice, F.F. Bruce, Matthew Henry, John MacArthur, J. Vernon McGee, R.C. Sproul, as well as a word study and sermon series from MacArthur, and revisiting the Romans series that the Rock did a few years back. This is an intense study...which I undertook last May along with Tadd.

Also, I'm doing an exegetical theology run down. This is everything from reading what the Bible has to say, to reading books and expositions, from going over everything from the basics of Christian faith as spelled out in scripture, to the seasoned creeds and confessions of Biblical Theology. It's quite a climb, but rich in its reward to know God more.

I'm learning so much at work, and they're starting to implement instructional courses towards the end of the day on various topics, like tools and what their purposes are, milling, machining, basics of mechanics, engineering, wood working, assembly, production, and I can't be more excited about it. I'm so stoked to learn all this stuff, and that I have the best job in the world right now.

Then I'm learning how to engineer different sounds and sequences through Reason. Learning recording styles, tactics, mixing, mastering, all to try and sound really good live. I'm going to be buying some microphones and a new keyboard this month, so that should help a lot too.

Whenever I have a free moment too, I try and hop on the design band wagon and brush up on some graphics, or build my website, or make my clothing line, or create logos, but I really have to be in the mood to do it, or else I just doodle. It's hard to switch tracks with so much going on, but I love to work through hard things I guess.

Then there's the daily life lessons, following Christ, learning from mistakes, learning to remain patient after such a long time, remaining faithful, watching my speech, listening to instruction, paying off credit cards...and it looks like and feels like so much, but God has managed to keep me regimented. And I see the need to remain that way. And I thought about it tonight, after leaving the concert: "A year ago I would have given it all up to go on tour and play music for my lifestyle as a career, but I'm still here and my heart has grown. People leave, people show up, people fade in and out, but I'm here, because I know I've resolved for God, and he has some pretty beautiful things just from sticking around all this time." And I believe it. The concert was wonderful, too. So yes, I'm learning, and I want to be teachable.