It's already five months into the year, and I cannot believe how wildly different things have been. A lot of things have made my life a jungle, and there's a lot of unbeaten paths I am taking.

To be sure, I am grateful for the many opportunities I've been given. Many, many things that I don't deserve - and yet, I am craving more.

A few brothers and I were speculating in January that this would be a big year. I had no idea how hard and fast things move. It has been a tremendously big year thus far, and though I'm not looking forward to the summer heat, I'm anxious to see what unveils over the next few months.

Work, music, outreach, leading a small group - I want to learn to love and give as much as I can. That's the hardest task, I think, especially after a long day. But I'm always ready for a new challenge. I won't forsake doing good. I want to glorify God in everything I do - and that's really hard too. It's a lot harder to say and do that now since more things have filled slots in my life - but I still have wants above all those things.

And a side note - traveling for some reason makes me want to have a girlfriend, or fiancee. I think I love the idea of exploring new places and sharing moments with someone who loves me too. Or having someone to go home to. I feel like when I'm gone now, my anchor gets cut loose and I have the tendency to want to leave life and just go. But that's not part of the editorial - just a tabloid for my life, and that part of my life is probably still a long ways off.

I want to go to Europe a few more times before things settle more. Also, South America and Asia are on my radar. And of course, I love trips to where it's green, grassy and humid.

Maybe I'll go to Seattle next month. Who knows. Time is on my side, because I'm a Calvinist...haha.