shifty

my eyes haven't calibrated yet. and I'm getting my teeth cleaned in the morning.

it's all go, and no stop. I don't even feel adequate when I sleep. Right now, it's really hard to deal with everything at once. I got supremely overwhelmed on the drive home, and my first thought was, "Dear Lord, please please please keep me steady. I can't seem to deal with all this. Backlogged items I've left unattended, sin I'm convicted of, people I need in my life, time that I need to just read."

And God is close to the broken hearted. He's close to me.
Right now, I do feel broken. Burdened by so much, only because my mind just goes there.

it's unfair how it processes like that, but it's even more important that I sort through it all, as much as I can get through one thing at a time. I do realize some things will take months. Others, longer. I just want some new socks. Black ones. That are really comfy. And a nice fire, with a tall glass of ice water.

My body is out of whack, so that's probably it too. I AM SLEEP deprived. and when I look at something remotely illuminated, it leaves this weird trace on my eyes...Goodnight, again.