"I'm having dreams about you. I wanna scream about you...you were the girl who seemed to own the world, and everything was about you." -Death Cab for Cutie, a B-Side from their new record Codes & Keys.

I think it's going to take some time for this record to grow on me, and I want to go back in time to live in the world that came from "What Sarah Said"...

I've gotta grow up, again.

Too long I've craved the Northwest Pacific coast. And just to clarify in case Tadd reads this, no, I am not talking about Alaska. More like Seattle, or Portland. But anyway, I'm going to try and save $7,000 by the end of the year. I realize that's a lot, but I'm shooting high. I tend to shoot high on most things. But I want to lose 20lbs by summer as well; so no more soda pop, and I'm going on more prayer walks. It's been 21 days without soda, and I need to pray much more than I already do. Plus more working out needs to be routed in.

When I was reading through my bible and commentaries today, I thought about being a pastor and how difficult it must be. I get caught up in this in between world of knowing where my life sits now, and where it would need to be if God makes me a pastor, but also what I need to do if another avenue of career opens up, and dealing with sin, and growing in the word.

I'm also learning discretion in not immediately falling in love with something. I can get ahead of myself and want to run down 17 different roads at the same time, and I think I can do it.

I need to get out for a while, and just leave something behind.