So close, that you can hear the damper pedal on the piano creak as it lifts to break the sustain. Like you can pick up the audio of dust flying off the forgotten strings.

It pierces your heart, like fiery barbs of remembrance. A moment of brilliance.

To be completely honest - those are some of the the times that I feel closest to God. Surrender, broken silence, chords of sonic emittance of everything on my heart. Playing a note that tells Him I'm terribly sorry for my faithlessness, and asking forgiveness for my frequent coldness.

There are so many things I want, and I too often feel marginalized. I don't know why. But I press on. And work my butt off. But the things I want aren't the things I get. And that's ok. I trust God, but there are still plans and aspirations. And all of that comes out when I hit a D#/Gm sus down to a Cm. It sounds sad, but it's honest. And I pray in different ways, but God hears me.