God is good

He is the strength of my heart
My portion forever
All I need

Radiohead has a song called All I Need, and every time I hear it, I think about Jesus.
It makes me so much crave rainy fall days, and a warm hand to hold.

I'll do sit ups, and create physique.
I'll paint pictures, and make a colorful world for you to live in.
Shedding of skin and pantone scales, falling off my eyes.
Different situations for the same consequence.
Why eat eggs, and not have chicken? Or vice versa.
We make up rules that we think we have to follow. That's religion, in essence.
Follow Jesus, he'll take my heart. It's so very wicked at times.
He can deal with it.

I am so joyful right now though, as I write this.
I think about all the sweet things that are going on!
My life is so busy and chaotic, but I function so well under pressure.
I feel challenged with time, mostly. Like I have to figure out time.
Like, I need to bake cookies, but help someone out, and be somewhere, all within 3 hours.

But I'm so comfortable. I wonder if that hinders me from being as effective for the gospel. I keep thinking about these things. And the things I want to help me ideally share the gospel are of material worth...if that makes sense?  Like a two thousand dollar keyboard to keep playing music. A new car that is safe to drive and not broken. And a few other things, but it's all material.  I want to be excellent in my offerings and service to God, and his people, but I don't want to get caught up in the needs of certain things. It's all confusing right now, but I know it'll work out.

What is see is that America needs Jesus, more than Discover Card, more than Audi, more than NFL or Pepsi, more than sex, more than hair cuts and Diesel Jeans, more than Calvin Klein and Slurpees, more than Flat Screen HD or Nike, more than Fruit by the Foot, more than family reunions or Reese's Peanut Butter Cup. We consume everything but Jesus. That sucks. And then I think about this verse:

Ecclesiastes 3:11 (NIV)

He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.

 How wild is that? God has set eternity in men's hearts. Humans are obviously created, in our souls, for eternity. Where that is spent is entirely contingent upon their relationship with Jesus. They're either repentant, saved and regenerate, or depraved, evil and sinful.  And since eternity is in mankind's hearts, and when they don't know Jesus, they try and fill their hearts with finite things. Only something or someone eternal can fill up eternity in the hearts of men. That is clearly and beautifully Jesus.

He's orchestrating all these things, and I'm figuring it out as I go along. Setting my sights to him. Adjusting and reworking my plan to his will. And right now, I'm tired, but overjoyed! God is good. Amen.