Work was long, tedious and lots of new things to learn. Very repetitious I might add, but productive to say the least. I feel like my two bosses, Mike and our engineer all have me do various jobs throughout the day, while trying to do my job at the same time. I like that they find me valuable enough to want to utilize me, I've just never known this type of working style, so I'm getting used to it. Also, our company is going to be featured on Myth Busters, to bust a myth on silencers. They flew out to Cali this week to film, and it should premier within the next season- so that's exciting, and will hopefully generate more revenue for the company. God is good and he provides.
I really blew it on a test. Can't believe how bad I did...pretty upsetting. I don't know where my mind was, but I just didn't win it. I still passed the class, but it really hurt my grade. I'm still pressing forward, and I'll do whatever it takes to keep growing and seeking God and pursuing a future to make ready for whatever God has. I'm thinking and praying about moving back out within the next 6 months to a year. School and work, that whole balancing act, along with serving the church (small group/house church/band practice/accountability/discipleship) is challenging to be sure, but I'm not challenged enough. I feel like if I make myself more independent, I'll really be challenged with school. Try harder essentially. I need that, because sometimes when things come easy, I take it easy and don't apply myself. That's not being a good steward, I don't think. God is good and he provides.
I gotta keep learning what to say, what not to say, and when to just be quiet. It's something I've become increasingly conscientious of, and I try to apply it as much as possible, but I often slip up. It's ok though, things will work out better.
This verse has really struck my heart, and it's so true. Nehemiah 8:10b says:
"And do not be grieved, for the joy of the LORD is your strength."
That is so true. I have so many reasons to be tired and burnt out, but the more that I find myself meditating on God's word, what I'm doing for the Lord in my day to day, I find that his joy is literally my strength. I don't know how else to explain it. As for now, it's late, I've made a night cap, grilled cheese and soup, and I'm ready to chill out and smile. God is good and he provides! Amen.
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