dead wrong

well wow, I'm normally not a fan of deleting posts, so I wont. but my last post (below) was quite amiss on a lot of things...I realize I have a very critical heart. That's going to take some time to change, and I decided to leave that post to serve as a check point to look back on.

He never stops working for me, God that is. And I left my cell phone in Bry's basement by accident, which led to Paul retrieving it to bring out to me. I was on my way in and he intercepted me so we walked back to the car, and a simple "How are you doing Hayden?" opened up an hour and a half conversation that really focused my heart. I love Paul so dearly, he is a faithful brother, a strong leader, a humble servant, and one of very select few whom I consider to be my father in the faith.

He shared his heart with me, and I was able to respond the best I could. And I opened up and told him everything in my heart, and he had so many good things to say to me. And I realized that I am dead wrong on a lot of things, and my approach to them/how I treat them. He really lit a fire under me which makes me want to become a more compassionate person. I want an infectious faith, a contagious love. I still desire to be genuine. And even when I don't agree with someone, or their lifestyle by virtue of my narrow-mindedness, I still need to love them and be unified.

I realized that God has different purposes for different people, all reaching the same goal-but what stuck out to me is pace. Our paces are different. My timing has always been off with certain things, but I feel like I'm running full sprint as best I can. I guess the list I had below is too brash and outspoken from irrational emotion. Anyway, lots on my mind, gotta get to sleep. I wanted to post this before I forgot. God is good.

Soli Deo Gloria