Well, slews of thoughts from tonight. Super stoked and blessed to see one of my best friends get married tonight, and how God clearly orchestrated all those moments in his and her lives to bring them to where they're at now. It gets me super choked up to think about all that has happened in the last year, and now I'm utterly amazed at the handywork of God in all our lives, which seems obvious in hindsight...

Weddings that are happening make me feel stuck. A lot of weight is underneath that commitment, which I've always understood, but seeing that God is moving all the parts in my heart except the relationship one, makes me just let go. Like in a good, serious way. Not saying I'm letting go of the idea, or desire, or dream I have to get married, have a beautiful, godly wife, and have cute babies, but that my hand is open for God to guide me. I told Zach tonight as he was driving me to my car, that I think it's gonna take a slap in the face miracle from God for a relationship to make sense. And if not, I told Tadd that if I'm not married or raptured by 2020, then I'll move to Anchorage, Alaska, to plant a church with him.

Zach and I also agreed that at our weddings, we probably only want our family and close friends. People who are dear to us. The kind of people you want to hang out with on a friday night, the kinds of people you smile when they're around. This probably sounds rude, but I'd only invite the other 80% of people I know for the purpose of getting sweet gifts. Like a full on, balls to the wall celebration! Like one of those weddings that really are just phenomenal. But, that's why Zach's is next, and we get to do the BETA version before I get ideas for mine...haha!  BUT!!! I really will only do what my babe wants, those are just my vague ideas! (Whoever she is..ha!)

I made a really bitchin' mix for the dance party, and only a few songs got played which is kind of a bummer, lots of good songs after. Like: Paper Planes, Sexyback, some Usher songs, some Gaga, Billie Jean, Daft Punk and Michael Buble. Oh well, good party mix to jam on another night I guess.

Also, I realize I probably have no idea what I'm talking about half the time, because there are all but two billion thoughts consecutively ruling my brain and I feel FRIIIIIIIIIIED! But it's good. Keep reading, keep working, keep designing, keep writing,  keep staying in people's lives. That's it for now. Word.