goals, and why not

I often find myself pondering next year. Wondering how much my environment will change in respects to sophistication and outlook on life. Then after I'm done thinking about next year, I wonder about five, then nine, then thirteen years down the road. Then I pull up to the driveway, walk in the door and start writing things down.

kinda like right now :present tense:

Why do I pursue the things I want?
Ultimately for the glory of God. Anything in my life ought to be radiant of that goal. Then, with that in mind, I map out three key areas to really just make sense of it all. And down to the specifics, I pick one solid reason and roll with it.

A. Have a plan mapped out. Time frame relative, but strict enough to be bound to it.

B. Prioritize that plan with the most feasible to the most abstract. (I've found it's ok to plan for things that seem unrealistic, and may not happen, but nonetheless great practice to prepare for.)

C. Stick to it.

And for specifics: (Two examples)
Why keep going to college? Because I want to have a solid job to be able to provide and take care of my wife. I'm gonna hate it most steps of the way, but I realize the necessity for it, and I want my wife taken care of more than my current, fickle urges to just throw school out altogether. I want to be an amazing husband.

Why know and study God's word? Because I want to be prepared for anything. If God puts me in a church plant, I want to contribute as a pillar. If God sends me over seas, I want to be well versed and prepared for anything. To know theology is to know the character of God, and that is something I crave more and more of.

And at the end of the day, there's a lot on paper. But steps are all it takes. And I think of Proverbs 16:1  The plans of the heart belong to man,
but the answer of the tongue is from the LORD.

So I can be equipped for most anything, but holding on loosely is the key. Letting God's will permeate through everything. Having my heart so close to God's, that my heart's desire is God's good and perfect plan. I have my dreams, and ideas, and prospects on the horizon, but all those are nothing without the hand of God guiding me. And that's a tough pill to swallow, but a necessary one.

Girl of my dreams/future wife

Career

Musical ambition

Dreams

Residency

City of Church plant

all these things are still in motion

all these things are in God's sovereign purpose for my life.

and timing is everything. amen.